As many of you know I am a cat lady in training and can almost always spot a cat anywhere. As it turns out, St. Petersburg is for cat lovers. Here is my proof:
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| This was the first thing I saw coming out of the metro from the train station from Saratov. I took it as a good omen that St. Pete's was going to be good to us. (I nick named this one Tim Riggins. He's so cute he has a random poster for himself in the metro) |
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| And then I kept seeing them! |
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| These were pictures of a real cat pillows I could hove purchased. |
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| In this store. |
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| This guy/meow was everywhere. |
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| A Tim Riggins look-a-like |
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| Hat... |
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| for your books.... |
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| and dishes. |
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| For summer |
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| And winter! |
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| Meow classic. |
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| Shai being a Tim Riggins poster child. |
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| Buttons |
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| Another in the metro. |
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| A whole isle at the bookstore. |
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| For your fridge. |
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| The meat pocket store.... |
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| with mascot. |
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| At the Hermitage |
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| If you can't tell, these say "I live at the Hermitage" |
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| and finally some Russian kittens. |
I feel complete.
Shai and I have just landed after a 48 hour travel home with a sweet 12 hour lay over in Amsterdam. (I love the Danish and may someday need to move to Amsterdam.) We are completely thrilled and relieved to be home. Despite the wonderful time we had in Russia it was one of the harder trips we've ever been on.
I deliberately didn't blog about our time, being the big gays that we are, for our safety. Although I never felt physically threatened, it was very clear that we were outsiders, and whether we were read as gay or not, I fully had my guard up the whole time. I did however feel an intense amount of hostility and coldness. I don't think I can actually know wether people were reading us a gays, or if its just because we were so painstakingly American, I can only imagine how hard it is to actually live in a place that doesn't allow it's people to live and be their full selves.
Not to say that every single person here in the U.S. can either. I have skin privilege that keeps me from being policed, monitored, threatened. I live in a gay mecca bubble and rarely feel harassment, and also have the privilege of having a femme identity that allows me to be read as straight. There is a flip side to each of those, but still, I have a cush fucking situation here being the white, femme, middle/working class, Wyoming to Californian woman I am.
I am so happy to see people smile. To feel the sunshine (even though this is straight up some global warming shit happening. 70's in January. Okay California) and to have a home and family and a community that I love and in turn love me.
Russia was obviously beautiful and great (please see and read the past 20 posts) but also hard and complicated on so many levels. And although I have no regrets having gone, and experiencing that part of the world in this time in history, I don't believe I will return to Russia for a second go round. Which is the first for me. I usually fantasize about returning to places I've visited. Russia your a one hitter.
I want to thank the universe and Russia (and all of it's people) for having us. For keeping us safe through the complicated hardness and for bringing us home. And of course, for all of the cats.
xoxo
Emily and Shai